Week 3

I took the weekend off from the formula and will start back tomorrow. I will get my last gel injection on Wednesday, and I am very happy today! I am not going to explain why because I just want to keep it for myself for now. I am learning more and more everyday what it means to truly BEHAVE and THINK like a Christian. God has blessed me in SO many ways. I feel very excited about my future, knowing it is in God's hands and He will make the crooked paths straight for me! I am committed to lose at least five pounds this next week. That is my goal anyhow!

End of week 2

Well, I didn't accomplish as much this week as I could have. I found myself going back to emotional eating to an extent. Although I ate healthy things like fruits and vegetables, my body didn't have time to burn those calories. I feel lonely at night with Danny gone, and I feel like a heel by hurting him. I just need to move on though.  Without caving in to eating at night. Also, it doesn't help when I stay up until 3 or 4 AM! My goal for week 3 is to not eat at night, and get used to going to sleep by midnight.
I did manage to lose another pound and I am trying to look at the bigger picture. I have lost 8 pounds in 2 weeks time- not bad!

Weight today (7/29/11) is 222 lbs

Day 8

After 1 week on the program, I have lost 7 pounds! I am really happy with this system and it really seems to be working for me. I have never had success like this without being sick. I feel good and look forward to more success as the next few months pass. If I continue at this rate, I will have lost most, if not all of my excess weight after 5 months. I am very satisfied with the program but I do realize that it is not automatic and I have to be conscious of what I eat all of the time. I would like to add some exercise next week and will do what I can with my limited mobility.


Weight: 223
 Weight loss after week 1- 7 lbs

Day 7

Today, I started with 2 scoops of the formula instead of one, although I couldn't get it all in. I was too full. I spent the afternoon with Michael, took a bath (a cool one), and now I am winding down from the day. I ate very small amounts and will weigh in tomorrow or the next day. This week has been an extremely emotional one because I broke my engagement to Danny off on Tuesday. He moved out yesterday. Last night I caved in a little bit to emotional eating by eating some chips, but I am back on track today.
It is really hard to hurt someone you love when you realize something is not right. But, it had to happen and better sooner than later. I have felt the pull of the Holy Spirit that we were being deceived by living together even though we said vows to one another and considered ourselves married in the eyes of God.I desperately need to find out who LORI is, without a man in my life right now. I need counseling. I want to still be Danny's friend but he is still very hurt and hostile towards me. I need to finish college, get a job, and learn what I can do independently for the first time in my life. Last night was the first night I have ever spent alone with no one else in the house and I was lonely but I am sure I will be just fine. Sooner or later...:-(

Day 6

I didn't weigh in today but I FEEL lighter. I didn't eat much, so I know the program is working!

Day 4

Same weight. I didn't eat much. I used the same measures of the formula as yesterday. I had a lot of emotional upset today. I broke off my engagement to Danny. More about that on another day. I am just exhausted.

weight 223

Day 3

For some strange reason I could not sleep last night. Well, it wasn't really strange- the Holy Spirit has been dealing with me concerning my relationship with Danny- him living here in particular, and I just don't know how to tell him. I am not sure he will believe me and that really scares me to think that I may lose him forever. I finally fell asleep at 6 AM. So, I am tired. Imagine that!
I took 1/2 dose of the formula this morning and another 1/2 this evening. I am eating but very small portions. I feel so full hours after my dosage. Still get bloated but that isn't too bad.

 Weight today is 223.

Day 2

I woke up with a bad migraine and felt really sick so I decided to give my body a rest from the formula today. I ate very little today and will start again in the morning with a half dose. I need to work my way up because the formula has so much fiber and I am not used to it. I am following the instructions. I am supposed to take the formula 5 days a week so I will probably take days off when I want and not in consecutive order.

I weighed 225 today. I am sure I lost a lot of water and other "stuff".

My very first day with Roca Lab's Mini gastric bypass-no surgery

Well, the time has come to do something radical to lose weight. I never had a problem with weight until I got sick with Fibromyalgia about 12 years ago. I was also MISdiagnosed with Bipolar, and the meds that I was put on, caused a huge weight gain of 80 pounds in 2 months. I have since been UNdiagnosed (11 years later) but have not been able to lose the weight. I have tried almost every program out there- I won't name them all- but always have been disappointed. In 2009, my husband of 29 years decided he didn't want me anymore. I was devastated to say the least, and managed to go from around 200 lbs to 180. After it was all over and I relocated from Georgia to where my family was in Illinois, I ate good, healthy meals, walked and climbed a lot of stairs everyday but for some reason, I slowly began putting my weight back on. I think that it was all of the turmoil and stress I was carrying around inside of my heart. I moved into my own place, and within a year, I put on the 20 lbs I had lost earlier, and 30 more bringing my weight gain up to a whopping 50 lbs. I realized that I had begun emotionally eating in the evenings. This was something very new to me but because I was grieving my losses, it was the only way I knew to deal with my loneliness and emptiness. In January, I met Danny and we got engaged. He moved in and took care of me for months because I also began having really bad problems with my right knee. To make a long story short, I now have bad arthritis in my joints and lower back. I was forcibly immobile for several months, which didn't help my weight problems. I hardly ate but because I could barely walk, I guess I just didn't burn up the calories. I have a medium frame and I am literally carrying around another person around on my body! I attribute much of my illnesses to my weight- diabetes, fibromyalgia, arthritis.
Earlier this week (on  Monday night I think), while doing a search on the internet, I came across The Mini Gastric Bypass- No Surgery by Roca Labs. I read it and became SOOO hopeful that this was my answer! I received my order on Friday (yesterday) and started my journey today- July 16, 2011. My starting weight is 230 lbs. There have been some side effects for me today- bloating and diarrhea- but I was assured by the literature that this will pass in time. I also called customer service and left a message, and they called me back within about 10 minutes! I feel very good about this and knowing that Roca is here for me really helps!
 I have had some negative comments about whether this was safe for me to do but I have a strong will, and strong reserve that others don't affect me much, especially when they are not in my shoes! I wonder why people think they can say what they want to me without any thought for my feelings? First, I was told how "worried" about me they are because of my weight, and now, when I find something that gives me some hope, they STILL have negative comments?!! Only Danny is supportive of me and he trusts my decisions and doesn't treat me like a child. Good God, I AM 50 YEARS OLD! When does it end?? I guess this is what it is like when you live near family. I love them so much but I am about ready to give up talking about my life to them.
I will be keeping a video journal to follow my progress, as well as blogging here. Here is to success!!

Starting weight 230 (almost unbelievable although my highest weight was 238, 2 months ago)